A Fresh *Start*

There is no better time that RIGHT NOW for a fresh start. It is the beginning of a new year, 2013, which means I can make as many new years resolutions as I want and not keep one. *smiles* This year is going to be different  I am not going to make even one new years resolution, and I am not going to set hundreds of unattainable goals for myself, or project high expectations on myself for the future. The reason that I have decided to not do any of those things, is because.... Last year I tried to set some goals, and expectations for for myself, and the majority of them ended with me being disappointed.  Things happen in life that you don't prepare for or expect. That is LIFE right. My goals did not sit well through the ups and downs of 2012. Leading me to feel like I had failed. It was not worth all the agony. So, this year I am going to take things day by day, and see how things go. I think deep down in my subconscious I am still creating mini lists of things that I wish to accomplish. But I will try my hardest not to be disappointed if they are not reached by the end of the year. Maybe they can be life goals. I guess my OCD gets the best of me at times.

I have lots of things to look forward to this year. Averie's birthday is next month, so I am planning that. It is going to be so much fun. We are having a butterfly birthday party. I am making a lot of the decor so if there are any suggestions for me. Fell free. We are planning to take a few vacations this year too. They are well overdue. They will probably be small vacations but hopefully still relaxing. I will be 30 this year. Where has the time gone. What I would give to move back home. I liked when Mom and Dad took care of me. Man I had it made. My Mom will be 50 this month. Sorry Mom, but I love you and 50 is something to be really proud of. My Dad turned 50 in November. We all had a blast. Thanksgiving came quick so I did not get a chance to talk about what we did or share photos. I always say that I am going to post photos, and never do. So until I get a new laptop (hint, hint) I will probably be on a photo hiatus. My daughter and husband have destroyed my current laptop. As long as I never want to tab, or type the letter d, or b, I guess I could still use it.

I am still getting a Birchbox every month, I love getting them in the mail. On a bad day they instantly make me feel better. I have also signed up for this new thing called PV body. You have to look into it. The first package I received had a pair of yoga pants from American Apparel and a PV body tank. It was very cool, and the sizes were perfect. It is a little expensive, but the thought is that if I have workout clothes to wear, maybe I will work out. I will let you know how that goes though. Brian and I are also going to start looking into buying a home. Not this year, but maybe next. We have both bought homes in the past and lost them to foreclosure. That market crash got the best of both of us. So we are a little leary about buying again. We are thinking maybe a townhome. Nessa will be out of the house and it will just be the three of us. I guess that would be something that we have to look more into.  I am definitely taking it slow this time.

This is where I sit with the year 2013.  I am not sure what it will bring. I am not sure what to expect. I am going to just take it all in stride. I want to be happy, and I think this will  help. It all starts right after this post. A four day weekend. It involves some cleaning, packing of christmas things, and shopping for my little girls 2nd birthday party. Let the good times roll!